The last two weeks

The last two weeks have been very busy for us. I had to go to a play and a concert for school, so we decided to make a date out of it. Last week we went to Fiddler on the Roof. It was really good. Neither one of us had seen it before. Jason really liked it. Then yesterday we went to Verdi's Requiem. It was fantastic. I was afraid Jason would not like it because there was singing in it. Like opera singing, but he liked it and I loved it. The music was so powerful and the singers were great. I have not really cared for my classes this semester, but one thing that they have taught me is that there are some wonderful events in the city that we need to take advantage of. I think it would be fun to go to an outdoor concert in the summer or go to the symphony again.
Also yesterday we worked on our yard. It was the first time since the fall that we really got out and worked in the yard for a long time. It was amazing how much work there was. I bought a bunch of plants to plant and three hours later I had them all done. I planted some calla lilies, ferns, other green plants that I can't remember the name to now, grass, and some other cute little flowers by the pond. I bought a lavender rose, they are my favorite, to go over with the other roses. Then I planted a little herb garden over by one of my trees. I mostly did it because the plants smell good and look pretty. I am not used to all that yard work. I was a little sore last night and today.
So I know that my blog is sort of turning into a blog about my yard. It is suppose to be an adoption blog, so I guess I will do an update on our adoption. Well there is nothing really to update. I would be lying if I said I was not a little frustrated. We said that when it got to two years that we would start considering other adoption agencies. Well a couple of months ago we started to look and nothing felt right. We felt like we should stay on the same course that we have been on. I have been trying to learn more about adoption through reading blogs and other sites. I have decided that I should not do that anymore. There are some blogs that are great and I follow them because the birthmoms have good stories. But most of them are negative and some of them are very mean. I started to notice that I just felt more and more negative when I read them.
Both Jason and I have felt like we have prepared as much as we can right now for the adoption and we just need to leave it in the Lord's hands and have faith that it will work out. So I think that I have to just focus on other things like school, getting stuff done around my house and figuring out what I want to do about work. I have not made a decision on what to do next semester for school and if I should go full time or not. If I go full time I will have to go part-time at work or quit. So I need to decide what I want to do pretty soon.

The Tournament

Okay so this is the closest to matching sweatsuits that Jason and I will get. We usually don't wear closing to matching t-shirts, but we got them at the March Madness games that we went to last weekend. I wanted to get a picture at the games but thy would not allow cameras in the Energy Solutions Arena. Well we had a lot of fun watching the three games that we got to go to. Our hope was that they were close games and they were. The Xavier/Kansas St game went into double overtime. It was pretty awesome even if I was exhasted the next day at work. Thursday before the games we went to the Red Iguana which we had never been too before. It was really good but the amazing thing for me was that I tried something different. Usually I stick with things that I am familiar with. Like tacos, fajitas, ect., but this time I try their red pepina mole. It was really good and I am glad that I finally tried something different.

Odds and Ends

I have been neglecting my blog like I have been neglecting my homework. Not much has been going on the last couple of weeks. In regards to my homework I am just not into the fine arts classes. I would much rather write essays about international economics than read a chapter about what forms of music were durng the Baroque Period. I also find it a waste of money for me to have to take fine arts classes since I am getting a Bachlor of Science. Well enough of that.



Well March Madness has begun and my bracket is already blown thanks to Kansas losing. Thanks to Tyler and Jason who rooted against them to spite Julia and I. So now I will be rooting for anyone who is playing Kentucky or Ohio St. Even though my bracket is busted I am still really excited to go to the games next week. It will be a lot of fun.



I wasted no time planting stuff as soon as the weather got nice. I got some pansys that I planted in my front yard with the tulips that are coming up. Also I was excited to see that most of the tulips that I planted last year are comin up. I think that our yard will look really nice and I will subject everyone who looks at my blog to pictures of the yard. Sorry.

This is a ruffled pansy that I planted. There are more than just this

one. I had never seen ruffled pansies before and I think they are

really cute

My pansys and tulips.

Our major home project this year is fixing the pool. Last fall we realized that we had a leak when Jason closed it for the winter and within a couple of weeks a fourth of the water was gone. So yesturday we had people over tearing out the old liner and putting in another liner. So it is not finished but this is what it looks like. We have been trying to fill the pool back up all of yesturday and part of today. I never realized how much water was in that thing. I am afraid to see our water bill. But the liner looks nice and I like the new metal border around it. It is suppose to be finished tomorrow, which will be nice.

Woo-Hoo the month is almost over. I don't know why, but this month has been so boring and I have been feeling so impatient and antsy. I told a friend the other day I am like a 2 year old who wants something. I want it now, now ,NOW! (insert stomping and pouting) Well I have not really thrown a trantrum, but sometimes it feels like it. But March is going to be exciting. In a couple of weeks is the March Madness Tournament for college basketball. I am so excited. I am taking off two days the first weekend so I can sit at home and watch games. I know that might sound silly, but it is time I get to veg at home by myself and I get to have Elizabeth time. So on top of the special Elizabeth time, the next week Jason and I have tickets to the Sweet 16 and Elite 8 games here in Salt Lake. I am so excited I might burst. Our tickets are not the greatest but who cares.

Then the next week we are going to Fiddler on the Roof. I have to see a play for my theater class and we decided to make a date out of it. I actually wanted to go to the Secret Garden, but it was at a Children's Theater and I thought well it would be silly for Jason and I to go. Also my professor might think it is weird. But if we ever have a girl I am taking her. It is one of my favorite books. Then last night after we got the Fiddler tickets we bought tickets to go to the Utah Symphany's performance of Verdi's Requim. I am going to that for my music class, but it sounds really interesting and it is an excuse to drag Jason to the symphony. I am excited because lately our date nights have involved us going to Target or parking on the opposite side of the Macey's parking lot. I know we are rebels.

Having faith is hard

So some people already know about this but I felt I should write about it for our blog. Last week we got a call about a birthmom. Not from our agency. A lady that I work with called me to say that her daughter had thought about us and knew of a birthmom who might be interested in us. Her daughter helps birthmoms find families. I called her and found out that the birthmom wanted to look at prospective adoptive parents' profiles. She could not tell us a lot about the birthmom, just that she was looking to do a private adoption. Jason and I have talked about private adoption before but felt more comfortable going through an agency. I told her I would talk to Jason and we would think about it.


I called Jason and told him what was going on so he could think about it before he came home. I told him that my first impression was not to do it. Luckily it was my early day so I could come home and think about what to do. On one hand this was an opportunity. There was no guarantee that the birthmom would pick us, but we would never know unless we tried. On the other hand we knew almost nothing about private adoption, we did not have a lawyer, and I felt it was almost dishonest to say that we were willing to adopt privately when we were not ready. The most important thing was if it was the right thing to do. Throughout our adoption journey the most important thing to both Jason and I has been following what we felt was right to do.


I knew what the right thing to do was. This was not the right path for us, but I wanted it to be so badly that I had a hard time accepting it. I wanted to find any reason to discount the feelings that I had and tell Jason this is what we are supposed to do and get our profile to the woman who had contacted me. I always thought that when the right opportunity to adopt happened that I would be so ecstatic, but instead all I wanted to do was cry. I kept thinking how can this be right if I feel like this?


Well we decided not to do it of course and I know we made the right decision even though it was really hard. It is hard to say no to something that is everything that you have wanted for so long. I have to admit that having faith is not my strong suit. I want to know what is going to happen, but I am trying to have faith that Heavenly Father knows what is best for us and that we will adopt when the time is right. I see how happy our friends are with their wonderful children and I can't help but wonder when we will get to exprience that. I am not trying to sound like I am complaining. In fact I have so many things to be grateful for. I have so many blessings and my life is really wonderful. I thought maybe I should write about our experience last week and my struggles because maybe it will help someone else who is going through the same thing. I know how hard the unknown can be. I know that for me sometimes reading the experiences of others has made me feel better.

I am ready for spring

My favorite season is spring and about this time of the year I start to get antsy for it to come. I am tired of all the cold weather, the snow, and the crappy air quality. Today made me even more anxious for nice weather when I went outside to get the mail and I noticed that my tulips in the front yard are starting to peek through the dirt. I was so excited. I have been looking forward to the Thanksgiving point tulip festival and this is making me more excited. I love flowers. Winter is so drab and dreary. I notice that I feel more down during the winter. When spring comes and all the flowers are out I can't help but smile. We also have a lot planned in the next coming months. Next month we are going to the March Madness basketball tournament, which we have been looking forward to like nine months. Also as odd as this sounds both Jason and I are excited to start yard work. I am looking forward to starting my garden this year and already have ideas of what tomatoes to plant this year.

The wedding

Today Jason's sister Kirsten got married in the Draper Temple. It was a nice wedding like always and Kirsten and her now husband Jeff looked very happy. I had Jason's sister Elizabeth take a couple of pictures of Jason and I outside the temple. She is a fantastic photographer. Jason looks so handsome in his suit and I am wearing my new red shirt.

Weddings are always nice and I like going to the temple with family. I always think back to when Jason and I got married. I will always remember how happy I was and how wonderful the whole day was. But as wonderful as our wedding was it is nothing compared to the 7 1/2 years we have spent together. I love Jason more now then I did the day we got married. I know him better and have got to see he kind of man that he is. He has helped me though a lot of hard times and I know that he will always stay by me. I know that probably sounds cheesy, but it is true. I think that so many people think about their wedding day and don't look to the future of what their marriage should be like. I think that is sad. I personally think that the happiness that you experience over the years of being married are so much more precious then the few hours you spend getting married.